Covid-19: The Queen, the Pope, and the Grim Reaper...

Covid-19 is really crystallising all those lame but revealing time based comparisons that we all love so much, especially in these mad accelerating times.

Less than two weeks ago, Liverpool were playing Atletico Madrid, 70,000 people were jammed into Cheltenham Racecourse, and I gave my last face to face lecture. Just over a week ago, on the Saturday, I ran a workshop on writing and photography. But there were cancellations and it was already obvious that universities would close, that online teaching would come into being, that a lockdown was getting closer.

My daughter was still working in a bar  a week ago. We went to the pub for a final pie and pint last Thursday. The only other table in the pub was filled with Bath Uni students going home. Town was dead already, and it took one day more for town to become deader still

With everything closing down, the only remaining diversion was last week was  shopping. There was a kind of perverse pleasure in seeing the empty shelves as people stocked up on everything and nothing. It was like being part of the  disaster movie that is unfolding around us. But then what kind of pleasure is that; empty shelf tourism is just one step up from empty street tourism which is possibly the lamest basis for a picture story ever - but that's all anyone is running because what else is there to photograph except for packed wards and dying patients - and nobody's showing that for some reason.

On friday already, some shops were social distancing. There were spaces between customers at the butchers as people flocked in to buy the meat that was sold out at the supermarket. The local veg store had a three customer policy, and in town, by saturday, the wholefood store had a customer limit, had separated the serve-yourself area and made everything contact-free. It was social distancing in action.

There's still loads of food about, the only problem is if you want to eat cheaply. Cheap carbs, proteins and vegetables all sell out quite quickly (and that's down to not trusting a word the government says - as well as selfishness), and it's the more expensive (and more local) options are still available. If you can afford to eat well, you will eat like a king or queen. The deli was well stocked, the Fine Cheese Company was still doing good Mother's Day business, and you can fill up on your home cooked chateaubriand, rack of lamb and venison pie to your heart's content. I think there's quite a few people who will eat and drink really well during the coronavirus season. Think Christmas but without the family round.

But there is a real problem if you don't have money, which is only going to intensify, especially if you are freelance or on any kind of zero hour contract. The money is running out. A clip was put on Facebook complaining about the stupidity of people shopping on Ridley Road market in London. it was quite crowded but not stupidly so (by normal standards), filled with people who were looking for food, much of which had sold out in supermarkets. What I wonder were they supposed to do? How quick exactly is your mind supposed to be able to move?

By Saturday all the pubs and cafes were closed. There was still an ice cream parlour open in town so after going to shops, we bought a socially distanced ice cream and sat down in Abbey Square listening to the busker play melancholic lounge music with a tv-theme tune playlist. But Hill Street Blues on a stand up organ in a Bath tourist hotspot will never grow old. Again, it felt like the last time we'd have an ice cream in the wild for a while.

And so we went home and went to our allotment. We live near our allotments. Walk up the hill behind our house and you're basically in the countryside. We're lucky that way. It was a beautiful yesterday. It's a beautiful day today. It was beautiful on Sunday, and Sunday was mother's day (the flowers in the supermarket remained unsold) and people were out - but at a distance from each other because that's the luxury of open space.

Some friends went out to the Black mountains in Wales. On the motorway there were signs saying stay at home. It's not a matter of going out wherever you like, it's the idea that if you crash your car, if you break your leg, there won't be a place for you to get treated. You're taking your life, and the lives of others, into your own hands.

Reports came out on the news from London - the long lenses were used to compress people to make places seem more crowded than they are. And the criticism flooded out. Yet even this morning, tube services were still running, people were still trying to get to work (in hospitals, in food supply services?) and they were packed. None of it makes any sense.

Every little inequality in this country is emerging complete with the hidden costs. Got a second home? Well don't go there because you will be a burden on the community that live there permanently. Live in a multi-occupancy one bed flat, well never leave because you'll be a burden on the rest of us. Live in the city, the difficulty of localised food shortages in a coronavirus hotspot become very quickly apparent, live in the country and there are multiple other problems.

It's a divisive disease in which the luxuries of food, of space, of transport (I had one rural friend who drove 30 miles to get to her nearest supermarket only to find it emptied - and had to drive another 40 miles to get to the next one - so £10 in petrol before she'd even started), of public transport, of food availability, of access to health services, or disease clusters.

I have family who have evacuated from southeast England to the Northumberland boondocks because of being vulnerable ( basically they get it = they die ) and sharing a house with their doctor son who is working in critical care unit without adequate protective equipment - you will get coronavirus they were told a couple of weeks ago.

And now the lockdown has begun. So the shops I mentioned earlier all have instore customer limits in place. The allotments are packed with people doing the only outdoor thing that is allowed, and a general air of being on the beach as the sea goes out during high tide holds us all in a state of unpleasant anticipation.

I wonder how this will develop. My Italian friend in Venice tell me that the restrictions will get tighter and tighter as the deaths rise, as the intensive care units fill, as the coffins overflow. They also tell me  how the old are still going outside, the trip to the shop their only outlet from the confines of their flats. And that makes me wonder about the intersection of  covid-19, class, morality and the privilege of space will all conspire against the poorest and most vulnerable. And how they will be blamed for their misfortune (they already are). And how money can buy you space or find you space, and keep you fed and make life possibly quite pleasant during what is a very difficult time - unless of course it stops being pleasant, then, well then.

I wonder how people will cope with this lockdown in a multi-occupancy flat - or room. How will you manage for 3 months if you're living in a single room? Which you can't afford to pay the rent for? Or with four kids and a shitty husband whose only saving grace is he's away at work most of the day. it's quite beyond me. And the weather's good now. What happens when it starts pissing it down with rain again. Will that make it better or worse.

I have no idea. All I do know is I'm not really in control of my thoughts right now, I don't think anyone is. I feel like I'm being blustered along like a rogue tumbleweed on a gust of coronavirus madness, a series of stone cold certainties mixed with inconsistent messages and a sense of nearing mortalities. I wonder what I'll be thinking  in one week, in two weeks, in three weeks... as the claustrophobia overwhelms, as bodies start to pile and the hunger starts to bite.

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Madmen Wallpaper

We'll be spending a lot of time looking at walls for the next few weeks so here's a wallpaper post. I don't think I've done one before - a Siskind, Twombly overlap might be nice - but I've looked at a lot of photobooks where wallpaper is a key element, maybe too much of one sometimes. And  Ioana Marinca has her brilliant Yellow Wallpaper project developing.

My wallpaper obsession is the one you see above. I keep on seeing it everywhere and it gets me so excited. The first time I saw this wallpaper was in the Winding House Museum with Jesse Alexander.

But then I saw it again and again, most recently in Madmen the other day (I came late to the series). I saw it and went 'fucking hell, they copied that from the Winding House. !' Which they didn't because the Madmen version probably came first in 2012, but who knows.

It gives me a strange thrill every time I see it whether it's in a museum, in a newspaper, at a student exhibiton, or on TV. It is shorthand in the UK for the 1970s, but in Madmen it's the late 1960s.

So there's a mining museum (Winding House), there's Brian Clough (football manager in drama from the mid-1970s), there's Nigella Lawson (cook), there's Len Goodman (Strictly Come Dancing), and there's a Bristol sofa warehouse - which is using it as a statement block in direct reference to Madmen and so is culturally on the button.

Did anyone ever have this wallpaper in real life? Does anyone have it now? Who designed it? Such are the questions I ask myself as we start the descent into  coronavirus lockdown.

And there we go - it's Trippy Wallpaper, designed by Graham and Brown in the UK (which is why it's in all those places) and it used to cost around £50 a roll but doesn't seem to be available.

If there's a photographer there, the MPs will get confused and vote the wrong way.

                           Mark Duffy cover pages - copyright Mark Duffy


For a break from Coronavirus, here is the absolutely fascinating case of Mark Duffy. Duffy was the House of Commons photographer during the height of the Brexit negotiations (happening a year ago this month - what happy days they were). You'll have seen his images across social media, and spread across the front pages of newspapers around the world.

He was an in-house photographer who also had an arts practice, one that linked in to Brexit. It was a practice that, together with the publicity his in-house images brought, led to him being subjected to gagging orders, disciplinary proceedings, dismissal for bringing the house into disrepute, and a morning raid by black-clad police officers.

                                      The image that saw Duffy accused of bringing the Houses of Parliament into disrepute

His photographs capture parliament during an unprecedented period of discord. They reveal both the chaos of the time, but also the low regard to which photography as a tool of historic record is held in the UK. His time in parliament also reveals the suspicion which photography is held and the rationalisations that can be made to block its use.

   
     The image that resulted in Duffy receiving a gagging order

The case of Mark Duffy and what it says about British attitudes to photography,and the way in which responsibility for parliamentary failures was laid at Duffy's door boggles my mind in a way no other photographic story has in the last year.

Read the whole story here. 

   
    The exhibition that resulted in a morning police raid

I know nothing about Coronavirus

    all pictures copyright colin pantall except the one that isn't

 I said to my wife the other yesterday.

Me: 'I'm finding the corona virus boring'

Katherine: 'What do you mean it's boring. It's like the start of a movie. The school's are shutting down, the markets crashing, people are panic buying, half of Europe's under lockdown, and we're all going to die.'

Which is all true, but I'm still finding it boring. It doesn't mean it's not a disaster, or tragic, or awful. I've been affected by it, my friends have been affected by it, it's cost me economically and creatively, and socially already in multiple ways, but it's been going on for months and, it's just that the images are repetitive and boring, the news is boring. Health warnings, face masks, and empty shelves. And now empty streets. There's a spate of graphics, statistics, and diagrams, some designed solely to show that somebody is doing something, even though they are not. It's information is often 100% factual and to be trusted, but the next minute you see something that is so partial that it is to be laughed at - a graphic equivalent of a president using a sharpie to change the mapping of a state. The only respite is the street singing from Italy and Spain. Oh, and the memes.

I'm not sure what you can photograph. When the Wuhan outbreak was happening you got some pictures of packed wards - you get the feeling the old double standard of showing sick people far away but not close to home will kick in, is already kicking in. The BBC showed a Spanish woman on the news with the disease (her husband had just died) but that was the first European case of corona virus I cn think of that I had seen on television in the UK (which has a heavily mediated release of images). I'm sure it's different in Italy or Spain. And I'm sure that's had an effect on public opinion there - I don't know if that's right, correct me if I'm wrong on this.




What is most interesting for me, from this clinical distance is that, yes, transmission rates are rocketing, but even more astonishing than the transmission rate is the rate at which opinion changes. Here in the UK a week ago Liverpool were losing to Atletico Madrid and the Cheltenham races were filled with elderly people in tweed with heart, lung and liver conditions spreading spittle around packed low-ceiling bars. It seems like madness now. It seemed like madness to a lot of people then to be fair.

    Spelt is still available, produce of Italy

On social media, people are telling us with absolute certainty that the only, the only, solution is to stay indoors for the next few months, never mind the consequences. They are probably right. I don't know.

        January, February, and March screengrabs of the Guardian online


The Guardian newspaper, which last month was telling us that markets were booming as the virus was beaten, now tell us how many people are going to die (hundreds of thousands), how many are going to be hospitalised.

That belief is echoed by doctors. My nephew who works in critical care and is expecting battlefield conditions (due to continuing government neglect of the health service) has been told he will get coronavirus. He lives with his dad who has pre-existing conditions and has been evacuated, second world war style, to a house near the grouse moors of Northumberland to ride out the coming storm.

It's a world of absolutes in other words, where freedom of movement, enforced confinement, and the crippling of people's everyday lives are all set to devastate our social and political landscape. I've found myself becoming part of that world of absolutes even though I like the idea of a middle way.

And that's what gets me wondering. There is absolute certainty where there is absolute uncertainty. It is almost a matter of faith (mixed with some hard science) and it is transmitted. One wakes up one morning moving from a state of this belief to one of that belief. It's mass psychosis, but it's there for a reason.

    The government plan

Amidst this sea of certainty and uncertainty, the question becomes what will the news be in one month's time - given how it's changed over the last week, month, two months. What will the new horrors of coronavirus be? Or will it be the horrors of the lockdown, or the economic meltdown. Or  an unforeseen consequence of all three.

I hope it's not the landscape of death that is being envisioned, and I kind of think it won't be. But then I think it might. Because \I simply haven't got a clue.  There's the idea that there is some kind of hidden truth behind coronavirus, that there's something we're not being told. I feel that, but then I see Boris Johnson, or Donald Trump on the news. I see another doctor from Wuhan remains disappeared, and I hear somebody recommending bananas or prayer as a cure. Then I realise there is no hidden truth apart from the very evident truths that are to do with food production, intensive farming, destruction of natural habitats - all of which are well documented from other animal-related viral outbreaks.

And that reminds me that we're run by idiots. Perhaps the mass psychosis we are all a part of at present is a reaction to the venality, stupidity, incompetence and disgusting greed of our leaders - I'm talking from a UK perspective here remember - and maybe that is the good that will come out of this mess. In the coming weeks we're going to see the different measures different countries take to protect their population medically, economically, psychologically. We're seeing that already. Once you get beyond the rhetoric of socialism or capitalism, and the harsh reality that a government's or leader's actions has led to suffering and death, perhaps that will crystallise certain things. What does happen with coronavirus in a country that has no functional public health care system, no testing regime, and no help from its government.

So perhaps the taking care, the confinement, the suspension of all human activity is a good thing. There's a hashtag in the UK that goes by the way of #torygenocide. It's the idea that the tories are actively seeking to wipe out half a million people, most of them poor. They're not. They don't need to. All you need to do that is the neglect, stupidity, and incompetence they have shown to date - the latest news today is that our prime-minister, Boris Johnson, joked that the hunt for ventilators should be called Operation Last Gasp.

Let's hope so. Let's hope it's the last gasp of this age of stupidity and casual cruelty. That is not in the least bit boring. But I have my doubts.

Cultural Appropriation, Interpersonal Voyeurism, and Own Voices

How do you photograph things that are outside your realm of consciousness or knowledge? It's  a problem for photography as much as it is for literature, possibly because almost all photography is about photographing the other, the exotic, the weird, the outlandish. Photography is about making things look interesting or spectacular, it's about honing in on specific elements of a scene, creating a visual inroads into something or somebody we may otherwise know little or nothing about.

It is a huge problem of course. John Edwin Mason wrote on  it for National Geographic a few years ago, commissioned by National Geographic  as part of what seemed like some soul searching on its part. But of course it's more difficult to change a way of seeing and thinking overnight, especially if the will really isn't there and a particular way of seeing is embedded in every form of photography, including those that are apparently seeking new ways of seeing.

It's  interesting to see ideas of cultural appropriation developing in fashion or literature. In literature in particular, it seems there are attempts to make the debate and the language manageable and workable, identifying what it really is that makes a story work or not work in narrative terms.

Last week in the Guardian, Nesrine Malik wrote about American Dirt - a book with Mexican protagonists written by a non-Mexican author that got a huge advance and huge controversy centred around the idea of cultural appropriation and the idea that the story is not the author's to tell..

According to Malik, the problem with American Dirt’s  is bad writing, not just cultural appropriation.

'Because here’s the real issue. Once one cuts through the noise and actually reads the book, what becomes clear is that the problem isn’t that Cummins wrote a story that wasn’t hers to tell, but that she told it poorly – in all the classic ways a story is badly told. Two-dimensional characters, tortured sentences, an attempt to cover the saga of a migrant without even addressing the wider context of migration or inequality. No wonder the book was so popular with publishers.'

Sound familiar? And here the problem of the bad story is not one that is limited to culturally appropriating authors. It is one that applies to all writers, including those who are not culturally appropriating. Partly this is due to the fact that most stories written are bad stories. Most writers are bad writers, most books are not great (20,000 were published in the UK last year. They're not all hits). But partly it's due to the fact that simplistic stories are what get commissioned. Publishers and editors love a bad story, especially if it's about something that is other to them.

'Despite the claims that white authors are savaged by philistines who cry cultural appropriation at every juncture, the reality is that non-white authors are the primary victims of the publishing world’s habit of catering to cliched taste, forcing them into topical ghettoes. In 2015 the Writing the Future report found that the “best chance of publication” for a black, Asian or minority ethnic writer was down the route of literary fiction that confirms the stereotype on themes such as “racism, colonialism or post-colonialism, as if these were the primary concerns of all BAME people”, said report editor Danuta Kean.

The idea here is that buzzword-ticking projects, however well-intentioned, might be limiting in voice, in story, in world view. Just because you stick post-colonialism in the blurb does not make it a good story. In fact it problem makes it a bad story for all kinds of reasons. It's the same in photography where you get stories about identity, gender, or space - that challenge, interrogate, and question - but don't.

That doesn't mean you shouldn't address these issues, not at all. The questioin is how do you address them. In her book We Need New Stories, Malik writes that one does need to face up to one's present and past history, and that one cannot gloss over one's past. In Britain, the glossing over the past comes with a wallowing in colonial history. AThis wallowing is “an exercise in mass consensual dishonesty... By glossing over the detail and omitting the legacy of imperialism, the British approach towards history is defensive, therefore inevitably dishonest and, ultimately, delusional… reduced to national hagiography...'

The idea here is that things need to be recognised but in a three-dimensional manner that recognises the emotional, the personal, the creative sides of life, and goes beyond the limited didactic voice.

The current issue of Mslexia has a feature on cultural appropriation by Debbie Taylor. It quotes the problem as exemplified by Kit de Waal, as one where "When one culture, the dominant one, uses stuff that belongs to a minority culture, that minority culture can feel a sense of loss of injustice."

It also looks at #ownvoices as a guide to what might count in your own voice, and also includes this considered diversity check list developed by MOGAI writers.





For Bran Lindy Ayres of MOGAI Writers, the real question is one of laziness. Stereotypical portrayals are the product of laziness, 'whatever our identity, whatever character we are creating.' Research is central to creating rounded cahracters. 'It doesn't need to be a political issue. It shouldn't be about ticking a box for diversity. It's just about being a better writer.


Taylor recognises the need for stories to have research, to be three-dimensional and addresses the problem of what you can write about (it uses Girl by Edna O'Brien book as an example) and the potential blind alleyways you can get stuck in. If you can't write about anything other than what you are and the world you inhabit, then very little would get written.

Kit de Waal echoes this point with her belief that 'We want the freedom to write the book we choose, to inhabit other lives and explore the full range of our imagination and ability.'

Zadie Smith agreed, writing that she has been many things in her fictions, she has had many voices that are not her own, and recognizes that writing about others can either be a containment (ie a negative form of control through stereotyping - as with Mammy in Gone With the Wind) or something that can expand our understanding - and possibly compassion. 'I sometimes wonder,' she writes, 'if our preferred verbal container for the phenomenon of writing about others was not “cultural appropriation” but rather “interpersonal voyeurism” or “profound-other-fascination” or even “cross-epidermal reanimation”? Our discussions would still be vibrant, perhaps even still furious—but I’m certain they would not be the same.'

There are people working in the same ideas in photography, but I sometimes wonder if the language of empowerment, compassion, or engagement (to take just a few terms used) is a kind of cultural appropriation deflector shield, if all the recognition and respect and involvement doesn't create more 'interpersonal voyeurism' and 'profound-other-fascination' that is two-dimensional and flat, or just visually uninteresting. If writing's not interesting, you try not to read it. The same goes for photography.

Or maybe interpersonal voyeurism is part of the point of photography? I often think it is, and if so, how does that play out. Can something like the #ownvoices roadmap featured above even begin to be applied, and if so where and how?

I'll be writing about this so this is a little mapping out of some thoughts and joining a few dots with a few readings I've stumbled across over the last few days.

In the meantime, congratulations to The Parasite for winning the Best Film Oscar. Here's the appropriation or #ownvoices snippet for that film from the South China Morning Post. I still enjoyed it though but I think there are hidden depths that aren't quite as visible to non-Koreans as they are to Koreans. Maybe it's not just about who makes it, but who watches it. And what they say...


“I don’t think Parasite makes any pretence that social mobility is a possibility,” said Im Seo-hee, an assistant professor of English at Hanyang University, adding that the film “suggests that the poor are poor for a reason; they make bad plans”.


“The film’s comedy laughs not with the poor but at the poor, the way the poor get immediately lax and disorganised as soon as the owners leave the house, the way they fight each other when they should be working together,” Im said.

East meets West, Writing, Photography and some new work

It was a rare pleasure to talk and run a crit/workshop (along with a great talk by Max Barnett of Pylot Magazine) at the East Meets West Masterclass run by Grain and Format. It was a pleasure because it is one of an increasing number of really fantastic courses and workshops that are popping up around the country - offering an affordable but absolutely top end opportunity to develop your work. 

I was talking about writing and photography so in part the workshop was about writing and how words can either really push forward your work (but can also hold it back - and sometimes all you need is a title or a caption - as Bill Owens or Karen Knorr prove). But it is also about how words can help you anchor and focus and push forward a project. 

There were people who had studied at MA level, BA level, or had worked in commercial settings and now wanted to spread their creative wings. There were people who had never studied photography before or who had come to it late. What was notable was how much was brought to the class by every participant, and the range of life experiences and approaches that were apparent. There was participatory photography, speculative documentary, the family, the fictional, the archive, the psychogeographical, the personal, the psychotherapeutic, collage, documentary, portraiture, extreme materiality, and a very scientific mapping survey. It was such a range

Anyway, here are some examples (and I could have put everyone's up). The top picture is by Lucy Turner who is also running a callout for pictures with gas fires in. If you have any, get in touch with her via lucyturnerphoto@gmail.com

LUCY TURNER 

My Grandfather worked for the marketing and advertisement team for the company Southern Gas. This project looks at the archived imagery that was taken and produced between 1950’s-1970’s for Southern Gas advertisements, as well as the posed company photographs that accompany them. 

Part of my recent research and photography project is based around Gas heaters such as the one featured in this image. I’m doing a call out for anyone that has family photographs with this style of heater featured somewhere in them, it doesn’t have to be the exact same as this as long as it’s a gas fire or heater. If you wouldn’t mind it being possibly featured in my project, could you please email me at lucyturnerphoto@gmail.com regarding any family photographs you have that could help with this. Thank you in advance!'

LAURA DICKEN

Inge is an amazingly talented artist. Her painting studio is on her allotment and this is the place she said she feels most beautiful and so where she wanted us to make her portrait. The allotments are just outside of Nottingham city centre but to get there I had to turn down a road that was more like a country lane. Even from the car park we had to walk for at good 5 minutes along a narrow path to get to Inges allotment. The allotments were all gated and enclosed by tall hedges which made it silent, serene and eerie. Inge went into her studio and emerged wearing the floor length, red silk, antique dress just as the sun started to drop. I only had about 10 minutes to get the shot. Inge is a quiet and thoughtful woman but she was incredibly nervous. I wasn’t sure I’d actually get a useable portrait but once I got my camera out and started making light readings Inge became very serene and was actually a natural.

'The Luminous’ was commissioned by 'The Renewal Trust’ based in Nottinghams Creative Quarter. ‘The Luminous’ explored the myriads of beauty with the local women of Sneinton, Nottingham. It was a fairly long form, highly collaborative project; each participant entered into an ongoing conversation with me to decide where and how they wanted their portrait made. The project was funded by Arts Council England and Paul Hamlyn Foundation and culminated as a solo exhibition at ‘Surface Gallery’, a set of postcards and a zine (which was printed on recycled paper and with vegetable inks).

MARLEY STARSKEY BUTLER

" I'm a social worker and photographer. These images are contemplative and reflective moments both towards, and returning from assessing a persons capacity to safeguard a child within their family, or a child they are connected to. A child who has suffered from significant harm in the care of their primary caregivers and deemed unable to return to their care.  The images are made through train windows, each in harmony with my preparations, doubts, optimism, conflicts, thoughts, analysis, and feelings whilst undertaking an assessment. 

The images are spontaneous as journeys are fully controlled by the cases allocated to me. Going only to where I am asked to carry out a statutory legal duty, fulfilling one jigsaw piece in the protection of children, ensuring they get the best out of the care system/keeping families together where possible. " 

TAMSIN GREEN

“The hands have an infinity of pleasure in them. The feel of things, textures, surfaces, rough things like cones and bark, smooth things like stalks and feathers and pebbles rounded by water, the teasing of gossamers . . . the scratchiness of lichen, the warmth of the sun, the sting of hail, the blunt blow of tumbling water, the flow of wind - nothing that I can touch or that touches me but has its own identity for the hand as much as for the eye.” Nan Shepherd

‘this is how the earth must see itself’ is an investigation into classification. A human urge to identify and organise the natural world. These systems of observation reveal how we see and understand the world around us, and are testament to our quest to find our place within it.

Early maps required no legend to read their paper landscape. Over time, map language has been simplified and digitalised to an abstract system of points, lines and areas. The Ordnance Survey (OS) map today uses just twelve symbols and three colours to describe the ‘natural features’ and ‘vegetation’ of the whole of Great Britain.

Looking at the individual symbols, I began to question why there is a need to identify and differentiate between particular types of natural features. What do they reveal about the way we view the natural landscape? How do they reflect the purpose of the maps making?

These OS symbols are used as a guide for exploring the landscape. A hunt for loose rock, bracken, scrub, scree. The process of ordering the photographs into these pre-defined categories throws up questions as pebbles become boulders, flowing water becomes outcrop, vines become the path. As with all classification systems, the rules are subjective, leading to their own telling of the story.

SUSANNA DE DIOS 

With my parents and older sister, Asturias, April 1979.

We should have been his comfort in life. He should have let us help him.»
                        
Even though we lived in different countries for over twenty years, the morning Dad died I was only a short trip away from his hospital bed. I had arrived in Spain at midnight the night before. Early the next morning I was woken up by a phone call from my sister telling me that we had to rush to hospital as he was deteriorating rapidly.

When we got there it was too late, he had passed away just a few minutes prior. 

I hadn’t seen my Dad for over a year, and couldn’t really remember much about the last time we spoke to each other, or how - or even if - we said goodbye. 

That Sunday morning was the end of my journey with Dad. A journey that had had happy moments but was often marred by dysfunction and conflict.

Dad suffered from mental health problems, which got progressively worse as he got older. For as long as I can remember these were managed at home by my Mum, my older sister and I without a word about it to anyone.

Our family album was the only glimpse of family life that we would show to others. It would always come out during special occasions, when we had friends or family over, as a way to showcase our good times and share amusing anecdotes.

Choosing when and where the family photos were taken and selecting which ones would go into the family album was a way to curate our family narrative and present a certain image of our life together to the outside world. 

As I look through my family album once more, I can clearly remember the memories that the images represent,  but   also   the   difficult   experiences and feelings that  were   there   at   the   time  but   remain undocumented. 


My purpose with this work is to tell our story and look at the childhood experiences that have shaped me.  The  project  will combine  photos taken  from the album with new work to lay  bare  our  family dynamics and portray a more authentic account of our time together.

Some of these projects are well under way, some have just started;  I'm looking forward to seeing how they all develop, and how words are use to  focus and communicate ideas. 

So look out for all the great affordable courses and workshops taking place around the country near you. The options for photographic education are opening up and it's a great thing to see.

And if you would like to take part in one of my writing and photography workshops, the next is on 14th March, sign up here. 

Why I didn't buy this book 2019

I bumped into ABC's Worst Photo Books of 2013 post a couple of days ago. this is what they said about Mishka Henner's Less Americains (which was one of my books of the year that year - even though it wasn't really a book).

1. Less Américains by Mishka Henner

He trashes Robert Frank, need we say more? Worst photo book of 2013. Let’s hope for Less Henner in 2014.

So Henner is part of ABC, so it's satirical, but at the same time it's not, how dare he, the bastard!I did a post a few years ago on my best books and then why (other) people didn't like them. So this is what was said about these books, it's really a Why I didn't buy this book list.

Mariela Sancari's Moises 

"Have I got to do it this way. I don't like being told how to read a book." "It's a bit foldy isn't it." "It's like a menu, but it doesn't have any food in it."

Thomas Sauvin's Until Death Do Us Part

"Ha ha ha. That's great. How much is it?" "£20." "It's not very big for £20. I don't like it."

Ivars Gravlejs' Early Works  "It's stupid." "If he wanted to make it really good, he wouldn't have had a picture of a sticker on the cover, he would have had a real sticker on the cover."

I really like the best of year photobook lists, they get me wondering at all these books I haven't seen and give me a general sense of visual illiteracy. But at the same time, I wonder how many are that great and who the audience is (which is what the post is all about really).

The shelf-life of the Best Photobooks lists is so short too and they come out and then kind of end. And nobody ever says a bad word about any of the books - which is good and lovely, but at the same time, as the above comments show, we don't all think quite as alike as we sometimes think we do.

So I wonder what more critical comments on the best photobooks list of 2019 would look like. If anybody would like to contribute succinctly and politely the little niggles you felt, please do and I'll make a list to put up later...

This is Viory Schellekens brilliant metalist of Best Photobooks of 2019 (no I didn't either)

I had these books in my list as best....

This is my own contribution, based on the fact that for the last 10 years I've subscribed to the Iranian Cheetah Newsletter which used to come with loads of camera trap pictures of cheetahs at night. 

The Pillar by Stephen Gill

"OK, so he sticks a post in the ground and the camera trap photographs the birds. What kind of picture is that. And why isn't there something exciting. Like cheetahs. And why's it called a pillar. It's not a pillar. It's a post. So the title's wrong."